I've stared at the blank white screen for what feels like decades. Knowing there's something to be said but no knowing what it is. Perhaps the it in question is simply the act?
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Two weeks ago I'd arrived home from a long day of meetings, grocery shopping, errands, and spiritual heaviness. The only thing I wanted to do was sit on the couch and binge watch episodes of KUWTK (don't judge me). But then, as strong as my urge for a pint of Ben & Jerry's was, in that same moment, I heard Him:
"Go write for me". (This is God speaking in case you hadn't already picked up on that.)
What followed was a childlike response. "Eh, I'm okay" I responded from my spirit as I flipped on HULU and nestled myself into my favorite corner of our deep seated feather down sectional. As the intro began planning there was a slight twinge of a guilt. Guilt which quickly became masked by the numbing of my braincells. I drifted off somewhere between Khloe going to the gym for the 10000 time that day and Kim remodeling mansion number two.
The next morning I'd like to tell you I was so overcome with remorse for my disobedience that I jumped out of bed and began writing. The truth is, guilt hit me for a moment and quickly faded by the distractions of my morning routine.
Five days later, I received a phone call.
"God put something on my heart that He needs you to hear. He wants you to stay the course, be consistent, don't force anything and ask Him for creativity."
I may not fully grasp the plans He has for me now, but I do know this: I will be obedient to His calling on my life and I will diligently do the work He has assigned to me, and for me.
- What action might God be calling you to?
- In what ways are you avoiding God's directions, or pushing Him off to the side?
- Would you say that you actively seek the voice of God?
- What are some times in your life you can look back and now see God wanted you to listen?
- Do you believe that God speaks to you?